This is Not a Safe Space
Hello. It's Me. I was wondering if after all these years you'd like to meet? There's one problem. I don't feel safe at the moment. Nowhere is a safe space. The places I used to found sanctuary, I now find scary. I'm constantly anxious and fearful. Because he's still out there. Living his life. Getting on with things. Well I can't move on until I feel safe. There is a lot of help out there. I'm using the help. I'm accepting it now, That's been the part of this whole process I've found the hardest. I have always prided myself on being independent, self-sufficient, and not needing other people. Because forgiveness and acceptance are not the same thing. I forgave my ex-boyfriend the moment I walked out of the door. I looked him in the eye, and I said to him, 'you are a domestic abuser, and you will never be able to live with what you have done, until you have accepted it.' Forgiveness was surprisi...